to tan or not to tan?

so they say tanning is really bad for you... and my mom said she doesnt want me to go anymore.... and i havent been in like 2 months... but now I WANT TO GO. i feel so white and the girls at work keep saying how white i am... and these days everyone says everything is bad for you but i doubt everything is bad so i think people should calm down and just do what they want and what makes them feel better.... or maybe people should just be safe and do somethings that dont include baking their bodies.... im having a terrible internal conflict and i can litterally hear these two people arguing in my head. theyre arguing about tanning. which sounds stupid but its not... its very legit.

have to be smart to have a smart phone... i guess

so i told my mom that i wanted a new phone and she said no.... so i told her i needed a new phone and she asked why. i told her i needed it cause i needed to get the blog app so i can do good in english 12... so she said yes! so i went and got the antrix 2.... problem is i have no idea how to work it and i havent had time to go into the att store and tell them i need them to teach me how to use the frickin phone. anyway... i never got the blog app... but i did learn that theyre called smart phone cause you have to be smart to have one, not because the phones are smart....

Frickin prom attire

So my dress is black, A line, sweat heart cut, very long, and the top is fitted. It's perfect and I loveeee it.... I want my date to be in black and white and I've always wanted to my date to have white tux butttttttt if he has a white tux then his vest must be black, his shirt must be white, and his tie must be black, and then my corsage can't be white cause he can't where a white rose pin thingy cause a white rose will look bad againt a white tux....and I wanted everything white and black! This is the major dilemma in my life... Life is hard... Hahaha

Longest 16 weeks of my life

So I'm very ready for high school to be done. I really want to get out of central ny and be on my own. I don't want to wake up at 6 every morning. I don't want to have class everyday. I don't want to eat another piece of homer high schools pizza. I don't want to say I'm still in high school. I don't want to have to ask my mom for permission to do stuff. I don't want to hear it from the juniors that it's so stupid that I'm graduating a year early. I don't want to plan a graduation party. I don't want to have to go to my graduation party! I'm just over everything about high school which is weird cause I'm not even a real senior and there's many seniors that don't want to leave high school... I can't wait to be on my own and responsible for myself and not have class everyday and not have to wake up super early and to go to all the college sporting events and to live on campus and to not live in cortland county and just to be able to say I'm a freshman in college.... Exactly 16 weeks... Sunt canton moving in day in is 16 weeks.... Ugh.

The tenth circle = reviewed!

so i looked up each book to see which one looked more interesting... after looking up the first 12 i thought i was doomed because i am a super picky reader. it takes an amazing book for me to actually read the book and not just pretend like i usually do :/  but as i was reading summaries i saw and read the summary for THE TENTH CIRCLE by Jodi Picoult... it caught my eye as it would any teenager. its about a teenager who gets raped and when her rapist falls over a bridge everyone blames her cause they know she has bad feeling towards her rapist as any normal person would....


this story is very realistic with the affairs and high school scene and temptations and things not going as planned and lies and secrets and family drama and people not believing the truth.... that alone is so interesting but the twist at the end was even more interesting.... NOT TELLING YOU THE TWIST cause that's the whole ending and Mr. Spalding told us not to spoil the ending even though i really want to cause I'm not good at keeping secrets unless they really matter but anyway...


this book is a mystery with a thriller essence and i find those characteristic very necessary for a book to be readable haha :) but i did not like the swearing just cause i find it extremely unnecessary.... but this book really pulled emotion out of me. it made me angry and upset but then happy and compassionate.... 


one of the many themes expressed throughout the book is mistakes and moving on from mistakes whether they are yours or someone else's... this theme is a good message. it shows that past mistakes can be over come by being determined to be different and better... at the end you just want to keep reading more but there is nothing more to read. i wish the book would continue and not leave the future of the character up in the air!

so overall i say.... READ IT

but only if your over the age of 13 cause its a little raunchy ;)

Decisions

i wish i could hire someone to make all my decisions and always choose the right way. im too tired and nervous to decide where im gonna go to college and plan a graduation party and who im going to prom with and what kind of housing im gonna do next year and if i actually want to attend graduation and if i want to make up that chem lab i missed and what dress should i where to the nyc awards ceremony in two weeks and mny more that i rather not have people that i dont really know see... life is so full of decisions... some stupid and not really going to effect my life or future but some are big futuristic decisions.... i just wish i had all the right answers and knew what the future held so i could do the right thing

the bachelor is fixed... :(

so im a bachelor and bachelorette kind of girl. me and mt mom have always watched it together, and out of many many seasons i have come to the conclusion that the show is fixed. this makes me very sad cause the show is so cute with all the romantic dates buttttttt its fixed so its officially fake and im officially sad and im officially done watching it... right after the end of this season haha